My Writing


Sometimes there are too many words, and they’re all competing for space in my head, and I can’t write them all but have to choose instead, and it’s all happening here on this page, this one chance, before they disappear in the darkness of forgetting, and I’m sad because it sounded so shockingly brilliant last night in the mists of almost-sleep, but memory steals words, you know, and doesn’t give them back in the same beautiful order, and it’s appalling, and you have to write them while you see them because sometimes it’s so hard, and you need to peer between the cracks to find them in the middle of the night when they’re alive.
They hide in the daylight when your head is full of unimportant things, and the phone’s ringing, and your dinner cools and gels while you’re away in the shadows chasing words with cobweb nets, and the mesh is wrong and they all fall through and you’ve got to start again, and dinner is ruined and the bloody phone again, and reality is pushy, and you’d much prefer the quiet purpleness of dreams and captured words and building stories in your head when you can catch them, and you wonder how they’ll all be rearranged and jumbled when you get to return, and if you’ll ever find the right ones again or a flake of something else instead that fits badly, and God, there’s not enough time to find them and to use them all correctly as you should because that’s the whole point and why we’re here, and it’s 4am and another cup of tea will do but don’t wake the whole house or they’ll all be up for munchies, and you can’t have them in the world of words when they don’t believe in the wondrous madness, or what goes on in your head, or the fabulous, mythical happiness of knowing the comfort of the storm.



Guess what I’ve been reading lately…

“There are very few of us left now”, said the man with the gun, “the others have gone”. His tone was matter-of-fact. The life had gone out of his voice.

“Yes, I know”, replied the boy, “we met no-one”.

He almost had to run alongside to keep up, even though the man had no shoes, just some plastic wrapped around his feet and fastened with dirty bits of twine. Nobody had any shoes – those who lived now did so in a world where shoes were a part of somebody else’s past, they didn’t belong here.

The camp was larger than he expected, and housed a mass of dislocated people. It was nestled a safe distance from the road, hidden from view by burnt scrubby bush and dead black trees. His father would have approved. The people who lived here had made shelters from what they could find; scraps of tarp and dozed useless rubber, rotted planks torn from the floors of long-abandoned houses, everything covered in the evil grey of ever-falling ash. The smell of despair hung damp and soupy in the air, a thick murky confusion of it, and the sky held no promise of tomorrow.

The man led him to a muddy-brown shelter at the centre of the camp where an old woman sat huddled beneath a stained and ragged blanket that might once have had a colour. Her eyes were sunken and afraid, and all the lights of hell danced there. When she took his hand, he saw the open sores on her skin and the blue-black of infection. He felt raw fear explode in his belly, and he wished he still had his father’s gun. The woman didn’t speak, and the boy wondered if maybe the horror of it all had frightened off her voice. Maybe talking belonged in the long-ago, in the normal world his father told him about, and was just another something that felt wrong here, something that didn’t fit.

They made a space for him that night in the old woman’s shelter, among the ashes and the twisted tree-roots, and he wrapped himself in the filthy rags they found for him. He lay long awake, shivering in the cold and the alien light of a faraway moon. On the edges of a troubled sleep he heard the muffled whispers of those who stood watch. It was good to know that he wasn’t yet the last.







2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. youseesee
    Oct 20, 2014 @ 20:56:10

    Love this, tumbling words creating a picture like a jigsaw

    Liked by 1 person


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